For the past few weeks I have started having moments of crazy, irrational fears centering on Sadie.
Maybe it started when she started rolling over in her crib at night and I was (still am?) 100% certain she was going to smother herself? Maybe it started because I allow myself to read terrible stories about other mommas losing or having extremely sick babies? Maybe it's because I have read so much that says SIDS risks peek at 4 months? Maybe it's because I have read stories of women struggling to get pregnant and not being able to? Or when they finally are pregnant they have to go through the hell I can only image a miscarriage to be?
I find myself asking why did everything go so amazing for me? Why was I blessed that way? I almost feel bad for having it so good. And I guess I have this crazy fear that something bad is going to happen to Sadie one day. From what I can tell, I am not the first momma to have these fears... no, really, I'm not. Haha!
I know that I am doing the best that I can do to protect Sadie and that's all that matters. Because as much as I will always want to protect her from the ugly in life I wont always be able to. She is going to fall down and cry, she is going to not get her way and cry, she is going to get her heart broken and cry and all I'll be able to do is sit down and cry right along with her while reminding her how much I love her.
I suppose the good of these fears is that I cherish every single thing about her and every single moment with her that much more. Because the last thing I would want to do is take any of this for granted, that would be a severe injustice to all those hurting and struggling mommas out there.
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Week in an Instant
Ahh, like the new title for this? I dooos.
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| Really? Not even July and Christmas stuff is already up? Redonk. |
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| I'm not the only one that uses my straightener as an iron right? (that's my shirt cuff) |
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| Ohhh, how jealous Hudson is of Sadie, but he loves her too... |
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| See? Told you, loves her. |
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| I love her too. |
Friday, June 24, 2011
5 Pins for Friday
Fabric Letters
I could cut these out with my Silhouette in fun fabric and make fridge magnets.Stuffed Stars
I want to make these and put them on the wreath below.
4th of July Wreath
I hope I can make this before next 4th of July!
Shutter Console Table
Such a good idea!
Annual Interview
I love this idea of doing an annual interview on or around kiddos birthday!
Anyone else out there have some good pins to share today?
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Getting older and growing up
My birthday is this weekend, Saturday to be specific.
& I am having a REALLY HARD TIME with this birthday. I've never been one to care about getting older, after all it is just a number it shouldn't define who I am. But for some reason this year it's really messing with my head.
I'll be 28.
Yes, 28. I know, I know, why in the world is 28 bothering me so much?! It's not a typical birthday you hear about bothering people. I think I have pinpointed it down to that 28 is precariously close to 30. Whether I knew it or not I seem to have had all these ideas in my head about things I would do before I was 30, I'm not even sure I could tell you what all those things are, but they are there floating around in my mind taunting me with a "you only have TWO years" chant. How ridiculous is that?
I blame Sadie for a lot of this (& not in a bad way!), she's kind of forced me to grow up and define myself as an adult. I mean I have a kid, for most people that would mean I am an adult, right? You would also think getting married, buying a house, being financially responsible would make be feel like an adult, yeah, not so much. It took having a kid, having this little person rely entirely on me (ok, maybe Robert too) to keep her alive, happy and healthy.
I suppose that is a lot of what has me freaked out too, I am finally coming to terms with the fact that I am an adult and not in that weird out of college/semi-grown-up limbo I felt like I was in for so long. I've been out of college for 6 years, pretty sure it was time to move past that. Working at the same company since my last year of college doesn't help with that.
I have started moving toward that right direction of growing up. It started with my closet, I brutally edited my wardrobe. I donated all the skimpy tank tops I used to wear out (mind you some I had not worn in at least 2 years) and almost everything that was ratty, torn, did not fit got tossed too. I then proceeded to go to "grown-up" stores and replenish my wardrobe with items other than t-shirts. I still need to address the whole pants situation, as I still wear jeans every day, but I am currently fighting with my pant size (common! I weigh less than before I got pregnant, whhhhyyyy did I go up a pant size!?!)
It's funny, I remember when I was younger I thought I would wait until I was at least 30 to start having babies (if I even had any!). My mom was 30 when she had me, so to me that always seemed like the age to have a baby. Now I can't help but think how nice it would be to pregnant with baby #2 by the time I am 30 (GASP!)!
In the end I know I will get over this funk and I will tackle those mysterious tasks my head has for me before I am 30, only I will have a baby, a husband and a few dogs in tow.
& I am having a REALLY HARD TIME with this birthday. I've never been one to care about getting older, after all it is just a number it shouldn't define who I am. But for some reason this year it's really messing with my head.
I'll be 28.
Yes, 28. I know, I know, why in the world is 28 bothering me so much?! It's not a typical birthday you hear about bothering people. I think I have pinpointed it down to that 28 is precariously close to 30. Whether I knew it or not I seem to have had all these ideas in my head about things I would do before I was 30, I'm not even sure I could tell you what all those things are, but they are there floating around in my mind taunting me with a "you only have TWO years" chant. How ridiculous is that?
I blame Sadie for a lot of this (& not in a bad way!), she's kind of forced me to grow up and define myself as an adult. I mean I have a kid, for most people that would mean I am an adult, right? You would also think getting married, buying a house, being financially responsible would make be feel like an adult, yeah, not so much. It took having a kid, having this little person rely entirely on me (ok, maybe Robert too) to keep her alive, happy and healthy.
I suppose that is a lot of what has me freaked out too, I am finally coming to terms with the fact that I am an adult and not in that weird out of college/semi-grown-up limbo I felt like I was in for so long. I've been out of college for 6 years, pretty sure it was time to move past that. Working at the same company since my last year of college doesn't help with that.
I have started moving toward that right direction of growing up. It started with my closet, I brutally edited my wardrobe. I donated all the skimpy tank tops I used to wear out (mind you some I had not worn in at least 2 years) and almost everything that was ratty, torn, did not fit got tossed too. I then proceeded to go to "grown-up" stores and replenish my wardrobe with items other than t-shirts. I still need to address the whole pants situation, as I still wear jeans every day, but I am currently fighting with my pant size (common! I weigh less than before I got pregnant, whhhhyyyy did I go up a pant size!?!)
It's funny, I remember when I was younger I thought I would wait until I was at least 30 to start having babies (if I even had any!). My mom was 30 when she had me, so to me that always seemed like the age to have a baby. Now I can't help but think how nice it would be to pregnant with baby #2 by the time I am 30 (GASP!)!
In the end I know I will get over this funk and I will tackle those mysterious tasks my head has for me before I am 30, only I will have a baby, a husband and a few dogs in tow.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Weekly Rewind with Instagram
I am going to try and do a weekly post of Instagram pictures from my phone. For this first one though I will overload you with all of my favorite pictures from my phone over the past few months!
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| One day old Sadie, where did all your hair go little girl? |
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| Naps are the best. |
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| Stuffed bunny my mom sent her for Easter. |
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| Easter 2011 |
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| Will this fit in my mouth? |
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| Rum cake for Robert's birthday. |
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| Have you seen these? Pretty good. |
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| It's gonna be a hot summer. |
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| Yes, you are too cute. |
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| Made it all the way through a day of daycare in this outfit! |
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| Jealous of her loooong eyelashes. |
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| Our neighborhood peacock. |
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| My favorite spot in our backyard... not that I get to it that much! |
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| Hudson and his cow bone. |
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| & Wade with his. |
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| Pretty sure we are well on our way to teething. |
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| 4 month drs appointment. |
Friday, June 17, 2011
Friday Pins
Y'all know about Pinterest, right? I feel like I was a little late getting on the bandwagon, but ohmygosh I freaking love it!! If you don't know what it is it's almost like a place to bookmark things, but you can organize into different boards and a bookmark is called a pin and the pins are pictures, needless to say there is a lot of pretty stuff to look at. So, I thought I would start trying to do a regular thing once a week where I post some different things I have pinned in the last week. Since this is the first week, I'll just pick from all of my pins. Enjoy
(If anyone out there wants an invite to join, let me know, I have several invites to give out!)
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Peanut Butter Pound Cake
My birthday is next Saturday and I reeeeealy want this for it!
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Crying is for Babies (Other Babies) Print
I am making an iron on transfer with this quote for a onesie for Sadie.
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Dr Pepper Print
Pretty sure this was MADE for me & Robert.
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Stock Tank Pool
I can't tell you how bad I want this in my backyard, I'll take the dog too!
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Hogwire Fence
I want to fence in an actual backyard on our property to keep the chicken out so grass can actually grow!
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Wooden Fireworks
With the firework ban going on these might be the only fireworks I see this 4th of July.
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Ribbon Fish
I love the tutorial for this. It would be super cute as a barrette or on a party invite. I can't wait to try and make a few for Sadie to wear.
That's all for today. Go check Pinterest out and start pinning! If you are on Pinterest let me know, I'd love to follow more people.
(If anyone out there wants an invite to join, let me know, I have several invites to give out!)
Peanut Butter Pound Cake
My birthday is next Saturday and I reeeeealy want this for it!
Crying is for Babies (Other Babies) Print
I am making an iron on transfer with this quote for a onesie for Sadie.
Dr Pepper Print
Pretty sure this was MADE for me & Robert.
Stock Tank Pool
I can't tell you how bad I want this in my backyard, I'll take the dog too!
Hogwire Fence
I want to fence in an actual backyard on our property to keep the chicken out so grass can actually grow!
Wooden Fireworks
With the firework ban going on these might be the only fireworks I see this 4th of July.
Ribbon Fish
I love the tutorial for this. It would be super cute as a barrette or on a party invite. I can't wait to try and make a few for Sadie to wear.
That's all for today. Go check Pinterest out and start pinning! If you are on Pinterest let me know, I'd love to follow more people.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Father's Day Present Wrapping
I just wanted to show off what Sadie and I did last night:
Here is what I did:
That is the on a present for Robert for Father's Day. It was super quick and easy, so any new mamma's out there haven't wrapped presents try this!
Here is what I did:
- Wrapped the box in brown kraft wrapping paper, any solid color paper would be fine
- Coated the bottom of a styrofoam bowl with white non-toxic paint (a plate would of been better, but all I had were bowls) use whatever color you have or that matches your wrapping paper
- Dunked Sadie's hand in the paint, this was probably the hardest part and why I think a plate would of been easier, you could also try painting baby's hand with the paint if you had foam craft brushes
- Do a test print (or two) on scrap paper - I did this because the paint was super globby on Sadie's hand, if you paint it on you might not need to do this step
- Helped Sadie open, and keep, her hand open and pressed down on the wrapped box - remember to push down on the back of the hand to get the palm print, otherwise you will just end up with finger tips
- I then cut the "i" and "daddy" out on my Silhouette SD, I had some sticky backed card stock so I used that, but you could use cute scrap booking paper etc, if you don't have a Silhouette (or Cricut etc.) just paint on the words or use markers or use baby's finger to finger paint it
I would suggest stripping baby down to a diaper to do this as Sadie and I both ended up with paint all over us, again using a plate instead of a bowl might of reduced this mess.
Ok, let me know if you try this and how it works out for ya!
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
This Texas Baby: rollin, rollin, rollin
Man, I hope my voice is not that annoying in real life.
Haha, and I promise I don't talk to my kid like a dog all the time "Come get Sophie! Come get Sophie!"
Monday, June 13, 2011
This Texas Baby: 4 Months
Does anyone know where the last 4 months of my life has gone? I mean really, how in the world has it been 4 months since Miss Sadie arrived? Robert and I were talking about it at lunch yesterday and how it's "It's ONLY been 4 months?" and "It's ALREADY been 4 months?" at the same time. Everything is going by so fast yet we both feel like she's always been here.
Speaking of lunch yesterday... I had been wanting to eat at Clear Springs for a while now, it's a catfish place and I'm not big on seafood, but I love their onion rings and I'm not big on onion rings either! Annnyways, we get there and Robert is getting Sadie out and I go to grab the diaper bag... which isn't in the truck. Well, we had just feed and changed her before we left the house so we decide to chance it and at least eat lunch as it is at least a 30 minute drive back to our house. Lunch was delish and Sadie slept most of the time, so we decided to push it even more and run to the grocery store! Thankfully Sadie did great and didn't have a poopy diaper blowout or start screaming her head off for food. But I was stressed the whole time, did not like. It was totally my fault the diaper bag was left at home, I don't think I'll be making that mistake again!
On to Sadie at 4 months (yea, I know I never did 3 months, my life lacks order so bad at the moment it's driving me bonkers). Sadie greeted turning 4 months old by rolling over, in fact she tried to roll off the examining table at the doctors office! She had been doing tummy to back rolling for a while now, although lets be honest I think 90% of that was her noggin outweighing the rest of her that it just naturally forced her over! She had been trying sooo had to go from back to tummy the past few weeks but just could not figure out how to get her arm unpinned, but she finally figured it out on Friday... at daycare. Apparently she was in her crib and really wanted to get to the toy attached to the side of her crib and that motivated her enough to get all the way over. Here's my question... do I want the daycare to tell me about these milestones my kid hits while there or live in ignorant bliss until she does it around Robert or I and think that is the first time she has done it? But she repeated this trick for us several times over the weekend one time being during a nap, which make me freak out that she was going to suffocate herself! Poor baby is so congested you can hear her breathing through the monitor, so I managed to keep from going in there to roll her over.
The drs appointment went well, she weighed in at 13 pounds 2.5 ounces (30-something percentile) and 25" long (75ish percentile). My doctor said she has just been having an allergic reaction to something the past few months (baby girl has been congested and snotty since before Easter) and that since it was not clearing up we should start her on the generic version of children's Zyrtec. We were also given this cute little dude to take home with us:
Hopefully doing breathing treatments as needed with this and the Zyrtec will help clear Sadie up. I feel terrible medicating my 4 month old baby, but she's been so snotty and congested for half of her little life, it's time to try something else than what I have been doing.
We were also given the ok to test out rice cereal "for fun" over the next two months. On Sunday we sat Sadie down in her Bumbo on the dining room table with a tablespoon of Earth's Best Whole Grain Rice Cereal mixed with 4 tablespoons of formula annnnd decided we are going to try again next weekend. She still has a pretty strong tongue thrust reflex so she just pushed the spoon out and any cereal that did make it in just oozed out the sided of her mouth. To be honest I didn't think she was ready, she hasn't shown any interest when we are eating (granted, we don't eat much around her) or our food but I figured it would still be good to start testing the waters.
Maybe one day I will actually post pictures. I promise my kid is cute. Click on that Facebook link over there on the right and add me as friend, I tend to actually post pictures of Sadie on there, although I promise not to clog your feed with "looooook at how cute my kid is posts".
Speaking of lunch yesterday... I had been wanting to eat at Clear Springs for a while now, it's a catfish place and I'm not big on seafood, but I love their onion rings and I'm not big on onion rings either! Annnyways, we get there and Robert is getting Sadie out and I go to grab the diaper bag... which isn't in the truck. Well, we had just feed and changed her before we left the house so we decide to chance it and at least eat lunch as it is at least a 30 minute drive back to our house. Lunch was delish and Sadie slept most of the time, so we decided to push it even more and run to the grocery store! Thankfully Sadie did great and didn't have a poopy diaper blowout or start screaming her head off for food. But I was stressed the whole time, did not like. It was totally my fault the diaper bag was left at home, I don't think I'll be making that mistake again!
On to Sadie at 4 months (yea, I know I never did 3 months, my life lacks order so bad at the moment it's driving me bonkers). Sadie greeted turning 4 months old by rolling over, in fact she tried to roll off the examining table at the doctors office! She had been doing tummy to back rolling for a while now, although lets be honest I think 90% of that was her noggin outweighing the rest of her that it just naturally forced her over! She had been trying sooo had to go from back to tummy the past few weeks but just could not figure out how to get her arm unpinned, but she finally figured it out on Friday... at daycare. Apparently she was in her crib and really wanted to get to the toy attached to the side of her crib and that motivated her enough to get all the way over. Here's my question... do I want the daycare to tell me about these milestones my kid hits while there or live in ignorant bliss until she does it around Robert or I and think that is the first time she has done it? But she repeated this trick for us several times over the weekend one time being during a nap, which make me freak out that she was going to suffocate herself! Poor baby is so congested you can hear her breathing through the monitor, so I managed to keep from going in there to roll her over.
The drs appointment went well, she weighed in at 13 pounds 2.5 ounces (30-something percentile) and 25" long (75ish percentile). My doctor said she has just been having an allergic reaction to something the past few months (baby girl has been congested and snotty since before Easter) and that since it was not clearing up we should start her on the generic version of children's Zyrtec. We were also given this cute little dude to take home with us:
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| Pediatric Nebulizer |
Hopefully doing breathing treatments as needed with this and the Zyrtec will help clear Sadie up. I feel terrible medicating my 4 month old baby, but she's been so snotty and congested for half of her little life, it's time to try something else than what I have been doing.
We were also given the ok to test out rice cereal "for fun" over the next two months. On Sunday we sat Sadie down in her Bumbo on the dining room table with a tablespoon of Earth's Best Whole Grain Rice Cereal mixed with 4 tablespoons of formula annnnd decided we are going to try again next weekend. She still has a pretty strong tongue thrust reflex so she just pushed the spoon out and any cereal that did make it in just oozed out the sided of her mouth. To be honest I didn't think she was ready, she hasn't shown any interest when we are eating (granted, we don't eat much around her) or our food but I figured it would still be good to start testing the waters.
Maybe one day I will actually post pictures. I promise my kid is cute. Click on that Facebook link over there on the right and add me as friend, I tend to actually post pictures of Sadie on there, although I promise not to clog your feed with "looooook at how cute my kid is posts".
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
I should be wearing a bib... NOT Sadie!
Side note: I need a damn tan.
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